Darkness and brokenness in the aftermath

So I’m driving in Altamonte Springs yesterday and as I sat at a traffic light I look across at a stretch of land…nothing but trees. At first glance you think things look normal. However, as I looked more closely I realized there was so much brokenness. Trees that looked like they were standing strong were simply leaning on others.

Later on I decided to drive through my parents’ neighborhood to see if the electricity was back on yet. Out on the main road, well lighted. The side street that led into the subdivision, well lighted. As I approached the circle….Darkness. Deep, thick, heavy darkness. It was like there was no moon/stars to help out. We have our parents with us, in a neighboring city where they wouldn’t have to deal with the darkness and heat. But as I exited the neighborhood I wondered about those that HAD to deal with it. Those who didn’t have family to say “pack your things, we’re coming to get you…you’re not staying there in the darkness and heat…”

My heart broke… I wanted to put on my cape and go door to door and ask what everyone needed. But over the past few days, each time I asked a different person going through this “what can I do? What do you need?” The answers were always the same: You can call Duke Energy and cuss them out…we’re o.k. Its just so hot…”

I drove home listening to reggae and soca…trying to avoid diving into the sadness I was leaving behind. As I drove, thinking and reflecting and being grateful, the skies looked like the heavens were having their own party and their disco ball was in full swing. Normally I would think, it must be storming somewhere…but last night in the midst of the deep darkness and chaos, the heavens were having a party.

All this got me to thinking how this is exactly what life is like for so many people now, stretching from Key West to Houston to parts of Georgia in the aftermath of the hurricanes. On the outskirts, things seem normal. But when you look closer, when you get closer, you see there is SO MUCH BROKENNESS. and in the middle of a well lighted city, there is deep darkness and heat an worry..

Going even deeper, this is exactly what life is like for so many people on a daily basis. Minus natural disasters, you see what appears to be normal people…but when you get closer, when you look harder, when you open your heart bigger, you realize there is so much sadness and brokenness and darkness that people are simply dealing with.

There is darkness and brokenness in the aftermath of Harvey and Irma, and loss and loneliness…

But don’t give up. And don’t master the art of pretense. You’re not alone. There is hope. There is help.

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HE IS…

God is OMNISCIENT. Meaning He possess OMNISCIENCE: total knowledge.

Omni-SCIENCE. HE IS what they’ve been trying to figure out. Why do they continuously try to separate the two?

HE IS medical

HE IS technology

HE IS communications

HE IS law/justice

The other planets exist because HE IS extravagant. Yep, GOD IS extra. He could have stopped at earth, but why do that??? The green aliens with the big dark eyes, or Transformers: if they exists it’s because He made them.

GOD IS TOTAL SCIENCE

GOD IS SPIRIT

GOD IS CHURCH

GOD IS STATE

there should be no “separation of…”

HE IS ALL OF IT

I always heard that word pronounced as omni-she-ence. And therefore always read it as that. But this morning I saw it for what it is: omniSCIENCE. and it hit me.  They make science seem evil. Like it’s opposite of God. But that’s just not true. If HE IS total science, complete knowledge,  how can it be evil?

Nothing about Him is evil.

The planets align because of Him.

The moon crosses paths with the sun ever so often and creates extravagant beauty because of Him.

HE IS ALL OF IT.

The science that you study is not evil. You are simply learning another aspect God.

Proverbs 8:17 says “I love those who love me, and those who diligently seek me will find me.”

So seek. Search. Research. And when you find, know that you are finding out more about who HE IS.

God is

Another Moment of Transparency 

Both kids fell asleep early tonight. The little one curled up sweetly and peacefully in her sister’s arms. Both in my bed.

This should be the time I shower and get in bed and sleep too!!!

Instead I find myself standing in my bathroom in my underwear catching up on my book. Terry McMillan’s “Who Asked You?”  And it dips and rises with emotions and I’m right there with it.  Ebooks are great. But there’s just something about turning the pages of a book that still bring me peace. So I read. And I laugh. And I gasp. And I giggle. 

Then I looked around.

My bathroom is a MESS.

I always say that if you want to check my emotional state, see if there’s a physical section of my life that’s untidy.  If everything is everything, then all is well. But if you find one section…the car, the bedroom the bathroom. Somewhere. where things are out of place, then so are my emotions. 

The car? Fine.

The living area? Tidy. 

Kitchen? Tidy 

The other bedrooms and bathroom?  Fine 

Walk over to my side….

My bedroom? Fine

Look closer…

Walk into my bathroom? 

Jeeeezuz. 

I have a pet peive about clothes on the floor, so that’s not happening. But things are out of place. Baby got hold of my bucket of bangles…the container is on the floor empty, there are a few bangles here and there, but I don’t know where most of them are

And. I. Don’t. Care.

Stuff is everywhere. Just out of place and 

I. Don’t. Care.

I know if I clean up the bathroom then it’ll help me out of this…state…but it’s late and I’m tired. So I shower and get in bed. 

Then my toddler wakes up. She’s been sleeping for 3 hours. My night is wrecked.

I’ll get to cleaning my bathroom soon. Definitely this weekend. But tonight I need to change and feed and read and snuggle with my baby. 

The bathroom can wait, and so can my emotions.

This is not deep

I just saw one of the most beautiful commercials…. starts off with the dad looking at his newborn through the glass window of the newborn room…the story follows through giving her that first bath, seeing her take her first steps….graduating high school….to seeing her get married…to looking at her once again through the same window, this time she’s holding her own newborn, her husband at her side.

What were they advertising? …. I sat and watched the entire emotional journey. 

Windex. Glass cleaner. 

They got me. 

Told you this wasn’t deep.